
At this point, I was compelled by both unnatural inclination and an instant obligation to take Kara's flowers to Mr.
Salford's plot. I didn't know the spot where Mr.
Salford's was buried, I'd never been there. However, during what now appeared to be adumbrate discussions with Kara, I knew that Nigel was buried beside his father. As a footnote, Mr.
Salford died on the exact anniversary of his father's death, ten years separated.
That fucking unflagging feeling of persuasion persisted and seemingly escorted me to the dead, Mr.
Salford. The really remarkable thing about the celerity of this achievement is emphasized by the fact that
Roselawn Heights is the oldest and largest cemetery in the region,
where a growing population of 54, 000 deceased resided. It resembled an
eldrich subdivision of flawlessly manicured lawns and perpendicular streets. Mr.
Salford's headstone had not been ensconced to date despite its requisition by the family last year. You could say it was a miracle to find it, if you well, believed in miracles.
I was now at the grave of someone to which I had no
acquaintance. What the fuck was I doing here exactly? I needed some cogency and substantiation but there wasn't any. This was fucked up, I know that. I could have exonerated myself by telling you I was three sheets to the wind if I didn't value abstemiousness. Save your commentary, I know, a bar owner that doesn't drink?
Slapped by an abrupt blow of embarrassment and lucidity, I got back into my car, turning the ignition over. A small bird flew across my
windshield, coiling the car. This sequence was succeeded by another bird until a sundry procession of birds accompanied the carousal and assembled on Nigel's grave.
Incomprehension had prefaced an advancing onset of jitters . Despite my discomposure, I collected the dexterity to drive away. Truth is, I got the fuck out of there fast. As I passed the gates leaving the
cemetery,
I tuned the radio to the opening chords for Start Again by Teenage
Fanclub. I've always found that song and the album,
Songs from Northern Britain consolatory. It became a lazy afternoon staff favourite. The album was introduced to us by Stereofish staff darling, Elyse Toby who resembled
Franka Potente from Run Lola Run.
My cell phone rang but I didn't pick up as I saw Kara's number. I intended to call Kara back but just not yet.